Somewhere during the orange summer i found myself as a completely different person. I think that during the last year of college I've contemplated how i react to the way i am treated, you know that saying "we accept the love we think we deserve'', yeah ..... wtf.

this summer I've gone through a long engagement, a bunch of secret whispering conversations and a long planned trip and a lot of lonely drives home. Despite my vague descriptions, i realized that the people i know are all going through an identity crisis. which isnt bad, since i'm doing the same exact thing, but i miss everything the exact way it used to be. i realize i'm not very good at committing to new change.

all i can say is, I'm doing a lot better than i'd imagine everyone thinks.