Drama Rama

i haven't read a lot of the entries on here, in fear that i may get nostalgic and begin on this horrible trip down memory lane. But I scanned through the last few entries, realizing that not only am I a total drama queen, but that I have been in the same predicament with the same boy for about seven years.

Michael has been a strange phase in my life. One that now I question myself daily about, why did i stay for so long?

 yes, i got experience

 yes, i felt somewhat loved

&

yes, i had the best intentions in mind

but once i look at the BIG picture i missed out on more than i gained.

the person who I'm mad at for wasting time is not him,

 it's me.

its strange that i still have this blog. i havent written in a while, and i think that due to the long hiatus between posting here, its safe to say i can be open.


who reads this anyway?

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i like being around you.

esh..

the most annoying thing in the world is when i am working at the bar, its busy and some douche walks in and has absolutely no clue what to order.

me- HI WELCOME WHAT CAN I GET U STARTED
douche- UH ....UM lets seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, I, um , I dunno. Whats Good???


ug.

Jason N.

met an interesting border patrol agent tonight, he told me all about tazers over drinks and later Denny's.


sometimes i forget how many interesting people are in the world, because i usually get all caught up on one.

highlights

The non profit I work for isn't necessarily a huge money maker- but i adore it. Despite the occasional ruffled feathers, I feel that I'm good at my job, today my boss mentioned a participant passed his exit interview, and mentioned that he felt i was an amazing facilitator.

Lately with all these feelings,( mainly getting out of a relationship i thought i was going to be into a lot longer than a few measly moments) - news like this makes my day.

Who needs a shitty relationship anyway?
i feel as although I've reclaimed my passion.

wanna splice? not anymore

making a conscious effort to move forward.

which basically means I'm done trying to accommodate to people who basically suck.